Making Up

You know? You never know when the last time you will kiss someone or make love to your woman. A fight could turn serious and lead to the end, and you last time, was your last time. We made up today. It was easy not to drink yesterday and today. Being in the dog house will do that. I also didn't have any fast food, however I did come home to her cooking hamburgers and baked potatoes. I swear she's all over the board sometimes.

Anyway, we kissed when we got home from work and now are about to lay in bed an watch some TV. I'm glad I started getting serious with my blog. I don't know if anyone will ever read it, but I guess I'll find out one of these days.

Fat Food!

Today sucked! I'm in the doghouse for drinking, I'm under pressure at work, and the love of my life is mad at me. Today, she wants us to no longer be us. I didn't eat all day. I was working and got busy and it just got late. So, like most emotional eaters, I jumped in the car and went and had 3 bacon cheeseburgers and fries at Wendy's. Fast food it too easy and I frequent it too much. It doesn't matter how much I exercise, fast food will kill me. So I've come up with another daily five. No fast food!

Alcohol Sucks!

And hold me to the fire, they should! I've been trying to control my drinking. Bargaining with my fiancée that I should get a shot for every 30 minutes I work out. We agreed on that and it worked... the first day. Yesterday, I had a third shot... and if I'm gonna be honest, a fourth.

She got mad and said she was done. I hope she's not, but I poured the bottle of 101 down the drain. I have to acknowledge that I can't have just a couple of drinks. I can't control my drinking. I'm not ready to call myself an alcoholic, after all, that has such a negative connotation to it. But I'm pretty much there.

So, this gives me the first of my daily 5 things that I'm going to do. Not drink alcohol.

Day 1

This isn't my first day one. In fact, if your like me, there have been more day one's than I can count. But today, I'm realizing that fat, drunk, and stupid is no way to go through life, son! Over the past couple of years, I've let my weight get up to 315lbs. I drink hard liquor every night, and I can barely hold on to the good things that I have.

I have a wonderful fiancée that I love very much. She loves me and she loves my daughter. In fact, if it weren't for my daughter, she'd of gotten rid of me long ago. I drink too much, I eat too much, and that's about it. I have a great job.. perfect woman, perfect daughter, yet I can't seem to do what I need to do to keep them. So that is where I start with this blog.... it's a concept that I've had for several years, but it's time to pull out all the stops!

I'm going to make some simple commitments. There's no way that I can look at my life and see the perfection where I want to be. So I'm going to do Just Five Things. Five things each day. Five things each week. Five things each month. Five things each year. And five things in my lifetime. That's it!

They will change as I go. And hopefully, as I check them each off, I will replace them with something more challenging.

My goals.. today? I want to lose 100lbs. I want to be in control of my alcohol consumption. I want my daughter and fiancée to be proud of me. So the hardest part I've had so far, is documenting this for others to hold me to the fire!

Here I go.... with Just Five Things!